Hello old friends! It’s been ages since I’ve written to you!
Today I want to talk to you about something. It’s not a post about my feelings or anything, just a straight downright honest letter to everybody who is reading this.
If any of you guys realized, I have disappeared on tumblr for quite a long time.
I wish my excuse is simple, like I’ve been busy or writer’s block. But truthfully, it’s a bit more than that.
As you guys might know, life has definitely took a twist on me, and things are certainly changing around. Some people would probably describe it as a disastrous change, regrettable change, a change that I should have prevented from happening. Hey! All I know that it has been teaching me new things and shaping me, making me stronger. That should be something worth rejoicing in.
Firstly, I want to make it clear, that the purpose of me writing a blog was never about the fame, attention, or followers, or whatever. The point is, I want to share my stories, feelings, thoughts,experiences, and I want to share more about His goodness. I want to encourage people, sharing positivism and optimism, together learning to love God and love people more. Be the kind of blog that can make you SMILE, even when you felt like you couldn’t. Just by writing to you… lengthy eccentric/idiosyncratic writings occasionally. Most of the time.
Second, and seeing the numbers of people that watched me grow from my crazy comedic posts to my deepest feelings and honest thoughts which are expressed in words, I couldn’t be more thankful for all the love and support that I’ve received over the years. All glory to God.
And finally THIRD, a lot of things has happened to me these past few months, starting from the incident, changes, and some minor cases of cyber bullying.
I have been thinking hard about how to greet you guys with a sincere hello, and what to say? But nothing came to my mind and I couldn’t think of anything to say, and I was too shy to reach out to you guys again.
To be honest, emotionally I wasn’t ready to go back active in this cyber world we live in called the Internet, especially TUMBLR. Reading too much hate comments and destructing criticisms sometimes makes me feel like abandoning blogging and focus more into my studies and activities.
I was so scared about what will happen if I ever start writing again.
But then I stumbled across some of the messages, questions, e-mails that some of you have sent to me. And I couldn’t help but tear out..
At first, I WANTED to be the one who make YOU smile. But instead, you guys have been the ones that make me smile, encourage me, and make me happy. And for that, from the bottom of my heart, I sincerely want to say THANK YOU.
Thank you for the attention that you have gave to me over the time, thank you for watching me grow, thank you for teaching me a lot of life lessons, thank you for teaching me to treasure people more.
I have never think of you guys, whether it be on instagram, twitter, formspring, tumblr, facebook, etc as FANS. I will always call you guys as my FRIENDS.
I will try to stop being shy to reach out to you guys, and I will to write to you many stories and sing you more songs. So please look forward to it! ^_^
Again, thank you so much. I will see you soon. <3